I know I post a lot of music videos but I think that music can help you in a lot of ways if you listen to the right songs. I am gonna post a couple of videos and maybe some of you can relate or maybe not, maybe you’ll just like them. I don’t know I haven’t felt like writing because I have a lot of mixed emotions about a lot of things and you know what I always say…”Everywhere you go… There you are.” The thing that I have been talking about that will change my life just got one step closer. (Pending Decision Approval).
I have become better because of this blog. The truth is I was going to get rid of the whole blog for reasons I won’t discuss. When it came down to it and I had to think about it, I couldn’t. Everyone who has our problems should know you are probably saving someones life right now. Before I was writing on here I was in a room depressed all day every day. I was miserable and I was writing, BUT I was writing to myself. I was writing my deep dark personal thoughts to myself and it was scary. I write on here because I am no one special, I wish I could be a hero, or someone famous but I am not. I wish people would care about what I have done for this country. I went to the VA and asked for help but they failed.
I was so lost for so long falling faster into the void that I was creating for myself. Then I wrote on here, I through a piece of me that was so small and insignificant out into a world with much bigger problems to save what I had left of myself. What I got was something that I had never expected. Some of you cared, some of you liked the dark parts of my life because you were going through them too. I was no longer alone writing those crazy dark thoughts on paper, just me and my mind going insane. Thank you, I am sure you can understand. Who doesn’t want someone to care about them. Who doesn’t want to feel special, we are human beings, we need it… I promise you I will be a better writer in the future, I will be more inspiring, just as much as y’all have to me. So here’s that other saying I have “If you have nothing to say, say nothing AND listen!”