I am an Infantryman that served 6 years in the U.S. Army and deployed twice. I have a Fiancee of 5 years and we have three children. Other than that, I won’t get any more personal. This page is to try to help me and others like me trying to adapt to civilian life after war. I have so much to write and to get out into the world. It’s just a matter of trying to find my reality and understand what I am writing so I can understand. I’ll try to make this blog interesting, I’ll try to be informative, maybe even a little humorous, but most importantly I will try to make sense.
Basically and to the point I am a soldier who after over 2 years of combat has acquired Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I had exited the military without treatment for PTSD because I didn’t want the brand when I got out in 2008. I wanted to prove that I could adapt to anything, obviously I was way wrong. I am sure you understand what I mean by now, and if not you will. In November of 2010 is when I started getting help with the VA and is the same year I had my first job since leaving the Army. I am not happy with the VA to say the least as you will come to understand. Maybe you can feel my pain, or maybe you have felt my pain.
Since 2010 anything I had tried to gain, or keep, anything that used to be me has slowly dwindled away. I lost my job, I lost my apartment, I lost my vehicle, and now I am losing my mind more and more each day. Not to mention I was diagnosed with testicular cancer, the young mans cancer, in March of 2012. All this and I am not even 30 yet. For the most part I am 95% cured, I hope, so I won’t make a big deal about it but it still one more thing I have to deal with. So this is my life as I remember it in so many words.
This blog is my witness to my life as of now god forbid the day I truly do lose my mind. I like to joke about it but I do believe it could be a real possibility. So if ya got some time then spend it with the ones you love, if they’re not around then read something good, and if you can’t find anything then try reading my blog. My mission is to try to inspire in any way shape or form anybody who is unfortunately in a position like mine or has a loved one in need. I don’t know exactly how to do that yet but stick around because I usually almost always never fail. Thanks/Nothing Follows/